“A moving celebration of food, love, and human potential — full of pain, but also full of joy.” 

— chicago review of books 

 

FEAST is the compulsively readable memoir of a woman at war—with herself, with her body, and with food—while working her way through the underbelly of New York City’s glamorous culinary scene.

Hannah Howard is a Columbia University freshman when she lands a hostess job at Picholine, a Michelin-starred restaurant in Manhattan. Eighteen years old and eager to learn, she’s invigorated by the manic energy and knife-sharp focus of the crew. By day Hannah explores the Columbia arts scene, struggling to find her place. By night she’s intoxicated by boxes of heady truffles and intrigued by the food industry’s insiders. She’s hungry for knowledge, success, and love, but she’s also ravenous because she hasn’t eaten more than yogurt and coffee in days.

Hannah is hiding an eating disorder. The excruciatingly late nights, demanding chefs, bad boyfriends, and destructive obsessions have left a void inside her that she can’t fill. To reconcile her relationships with the food she worships and a body she struggles to accept, Hannah’s going to have to learn to nourish her soul.

“Feast is a beautiful, heartbreaking, and life-affirming story that anyone who has ever struggled to define a healthy relationship with food will be able to relate to. I couldn’t put it down.” 

— Nicola KRAUS, author of the nanny diaries

 
 

"Hannah Howard's debut memoir Feast is a gorgeous, painful reckoning with food, femininity, and ambition - a moving look at a young woman becoming herself in the grueling culture of New York City restaurants.  There's an affecting tension between Howard's passion for exquisite food and an eating disorder that has become a "soundtrack" to her life. This is a book full of heartbreak and delight, with appealing expertise from a talented writer who has been in the trenches, sampling suckling pig, taking the temperature of trout, dodging the unwanted advance from the chef. Rich, complex, and compulsively readable."

— Megan Mayhew Bergman, author of Almost Famous Women

 

“In this candid and searching memoir, Howard offers a celebration of food as well as an account of the determination required to forge a path to self-acceptance. An inspirational memoir of food and finding oneself.”

— Kirkus Reviews

 
 
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Hi, I'm Hannah 

I'm a writer and food expert who spent my formative years in New York eating, drinking, serving, bartending, cooking on a hot line, flipping giant wheels of cheese, and managing restaurants. I write about delicious things for a living, appear in food videos, teach cheese and cooking classes, and host culinary events. My memoir, Feast: True Love in and Out of the Kitchen, is forthcoming with Little A in 2018. 

I received my BA from Columbia University in Creative Writing and Anthropology in 2009 and my MFA in Creative Nonfiction at the Bennington Writing Seminars in 2018, where I was a recipient of the Lucy Grealy Scholarship. 

My work has been featured in The New York Times, VICE, Self.com, Thought Catalog, AMEX OPEN forum, Serious Eats, New York Magazine’s Grub Street, refinery29, The Olive Oil Times and Columbia College Today. 

My writing has been the voice of Men’s Health, Applegate, Murray’s Cheese, Bloomingdale's, Panera, Olay, Pantene and many more. I mentor women recovering from eating disorders on building a happy, healthy relationships with food and themselves. I live in New York City. 

 
 
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“Heartfelt, heartbreaking, and courageously generous, Feast is one of the most memorable and important debuts I’ve ever read. With beautiful lyricism and unflinching storytelling, Hannah Howard weaves together addiction, love, fear, sexism, insecurity, ambition, and trauma in a way I’ve never seen done before. As with everything, with every life, Feast isn’t a story about one thing, but rather how intersecting, manifold, and even contradictory things make up a life. It’s a story about the miraculousness of becoming yourself. A must-read for anyone who’s ever wanted to escape their body, for anyone who has loved deeply and wrongly, for anyone who has dared to forgive themselves.” 

— Morgan Parker, author of There Are More Beautiful Things Than Beyonce